Let him take care of it

God is perfect.

Yet as humans we are not.

So what does that mean to us. We can't compare. Because being "not" perfect entails a whole lot. From pain to suffering to well so much more. There is a vast spectrum that doesn't seem comparable to God.

But here's the deal. God traded his one and only son so that we should have everlasting life.

But what does that really mean?

Well, I'm not going to say I have the answers but for me I have figured this out. (Though I have to remind myself constantly.) God's love is enough to cover, rather, erase any pain or suffering I am going through. The drastic hole in my heart that the pain creates is not comparable to the "plug" that God has for it. Well, in all honesty, I feel like God gives me a whole new heart. Daily.

Consistly, as the pain comes, God is ready and willing to remove it. But often times, that pain as such a hold on me that I don't want nor feel like I can let it go. I know I have spent plenty of nights crying myself to sleep or thinking myself to sleep wondering what hope I have left. That there's nothing I could do to fix my problem.

There's that reality part. I can't do anything other than give it to God. Let him take care of it. As Father's Day is around the corner, I am reminded that God is the ulimate Father. He takes care of it. Whatever "It" may be. He renews us in a way that I am so grateful for.

My past does not control my future. My hurts do not control my love. My pain has no control on my freedom. All because God is in control. He says what goes.

So to all the Father's out there... thanks. To my ultimate Father, Thanks for being in Control.

Changes: Pray First

Life can change in an instance... yes. However, it is a mysterious twists and turn to make things happen. What makes me understand this is because since I saw my older brother getting marry at the age of 16... I knew then I wanted to marry. But marry whom? I prayed endlessly. When I had my first boyfriend... til the day I meant my final boyfriend and now fiance almost ten years later. Every day in between when I got lonely I prayed for the characteristics I wanted in my one day husband. I prayed from things as important as I pray he spents time with our kids all the way to I hope he enjoys going to the movies with me. And I can trustfully say, my fiance is the man I have been praying for. It took many tears of loneliness and "where the hell is he" to wow maybe he is the one.... well my soon to be husband is the one. God knew what was in my heart... and equally I see God knew what was in my future husband's heart. We were made for each other.... not exactly alike but love that bonds us together. And we are happy so super happy. So thank you God... for him and everything that he is and will be.

I want to encourage all girls out there. If you're thinking about getting married one day. Pray. Pray first. I am thankful that God let me pray and God knew years in advance what my "one day in the future" husband would be like. God knew also what my guy would be looking for. The real love that feels more alive... that ONLY God can give is more greater than any other love I know. So after you chase the Lord of Lords... than let God plan the rest. God has in mind the man that he wants to be your husband. And I'm happy as can be.