Believing is knowing that something is real because you see it. Faith is knowing something is real because you're certain it's there.

I'm having a hard time believing because so much of what I see doesn't match up with my faith. I'm certain (have faith) that God is there controling everything. Yet what I see is so many people in this world out of control.

I know being a Christian is hard, having faith in God is hard yet I don't understand those who don't believe in God. God is everywhere yet so many refuse to see his works. But perhaps, so many don't recognize God anymore. I don't know why I have been blessed. There's a saying that my pastor always says.. Bless by choice not by chance... so am I making a choice to see God hence the blessing while other choose not to see God.

I'm trying my best to be the eyes for others. To let them know not only what I see, but what God sees. I see the broken, the hopeless, the jaded yet more than that I see how they can not be so broken, they can be filled with hope, they can be made complete.... but is it my place to think that they are broken without God...

Judas did exactly what was asked of Him, He sent Jesus Christ to the cross with a kiss.... the worst betrayal, But if He chose to follow Christ instead of betrayal... Jesus wouldn't have been sent to the cross..... Can it be that even when we are lost... in our moments of betrayal, we could be doing exactly what is asked of us by God. I just don't know. As you see, I'm lost amongst so many questions. I'm trying to seek the answers that the Lord wishes to give me but I know I'm blinded. Words of wisdom? let me know.