Waiting for His Love.

I think encompassing God's love has more to deal with than just waiting. I think we have to actively seek God's presence into our life. God's will prevail but this is one time were friction doesn't make sense. I think it appeases God when we don't just stand by and let His will be done but when we actively go and ask, "Hey, God what can I do for you today?"... I honestly think that is how every relationship is suppose to work.

For some weird reason that surprises me. God has manfested the perfect relationship. The ultimate sacrifice yet expections that we may never meet but hope for.

Just for me... straight from my heart.

I wish. For more than what could ever happen. I wish I was never hurt. I wish I could be as innocent as I once was. I want Him to be enough. I want to let everything go that keeps my heart guarded. I want Him to look at me and not see everything I've done, everything that I've been through... I want more. I want so much more than what I've been given in this life, so much more. I want to be complete. Completely His. I want to sign every letter... Yours... and know that with all of my heart I am His. That's He's accepted me for everything I am and for everything I want to be... and honestly for everything that keeps me failing. I'm so over this hurt. I'm so over feeling this way. I'm so over.

When I least expect it. He'll be enough. One day. In one moment.

I just pray I can wait till then
because honestly I don't know if I can anymore.