Lost in Translation

Words. Relationships. It can be a thread pulling us together or tear us apart.

Sadly, we live in a world where passionate words are listened with hardened hearts. The society we live in is numb to what their neighbor is going through, let alone passionate about.

Do we stop... be still even.... and truly hear what we are suppose to hear?

There is a lesson that we all must learn. Those lessons are meant to educate so we have a knowledge. All of us have heard the knowledge is power. So why don't we seek to grasp as much knowledge as possible?

Maybe we are scared of the teacher trying to teach the lesson. Some teachers have made senselessness out of words. The lessons are abandoned at the door.  But could it be that we are also bad students? We often have the same lesson presented to us in a hundred different ways?

I believe that God tries the same thing. I seriously doubt that God is a bad teacher. I certainly believe that I can be a bad student. I believe that He tries to present a lesson in front of me in many ways.

That being said, why am I numb to what others have to say? Why would I limit God in believing that He couldn't use them to speak to me? Well, to be honest, I know why I am numb. The lesson gets lost in translation. So not only does the lesson get lost but so do I.

I have lost myself, my power, and my relationship with others.

No wonder so many don't believe. There is a epidemic of teachers with false teachings. No hope I guess? WRONG!

There is hope. There is hope in God's truth which is His ultimate word. We can go to the Bible and pray that the Holy Spirit guides us. We can pray that the Holy Spirit doesn't just lead you to figure out the truth, but also those teachers you come across. We can stop and listen. Dwell on the threads that tie us together. We may have to fight through the misconceptions but when we get to the Truth. Wow! There will be a moment of clarity that is unfathomable to explain. Words won't do it justice because Truth marrows in the depths of our souls.

This also opens the doors for us to become teachers. Knowledge is our God-given power to influence. We must be careful with that power. We have the chance for God to us to speak some Heavenly Truth. It is not an easy task yet a thrilling one.

As long as I seek the truth, I will never lose my true self. As long as I let the correct knowledge seep through, I will not lose my power to something else. As long as I let my relationships blossom because God is leading factor, I will have no reason to become cynical but rather awe-inspired.

No need to be lost in translation. Just the clarity of God's truth.

A Recipe for a World Record

Often times, I write when something troubles my mind, or exceeds my heart. This is not the case. Moments of epic proportion are currently not in my vocabulary.

But what I am figuring out is that, these are moments that perhaps cause momentum to flourish. Success does not come over night. There is a fight. Either a fight in our soul, our bodies or our mind that really has to happen in order for success to come about. As I witness these 2012 Olympics, we see the end product. Many athletes are in a race. A race for setting a record and being the best. People closely watch their every move. The real beginning is not the starter gun ringing through the stadium. The beginning starts months maybe decades before.

These beginning months are filled with early mornings and long days. Moments over and over again that push the limit. No one is watching other than their support system that come from family, friends, colleagues, and coaches. Now obviously there is no recipe for a world record or gold medal. However each athlete's common path is the moment in which they face adversity. A fight where they must dig down deep. A place to where only they know they can go.

 My "fight" place is in the chilling crisp stillness. The most vivid times I can remember this is when I would walk to work for my 4 am shift. I was attending college at the time with no car so these walks had to motivate me. But I have realized, that this is when the world is the most still. People who have worked the night shift have not gone home yet. Those who are getting up early are barely turning off their alarms. Late night party people are passed out drunk at this point. The late night critters are getting ready to settle into their holes, and the morning birds have not yet risen to sing. The world is still.

I was left with my thoughts. In my faith, I felt the closest to the significance of knowing God. Normally writing and music have this over powering energy that clarifies these moments for me when I can't be awake at this time. But there is nothing quite like, the stillness of the earth.

Searching in this stillness may just be the recipe to overcome. When we search our hearts for something stronger, it takes us to a place that may even surprise us. We press on for success. We simply cannot become stronger without it.

We can't fake the pain either. The adversity really hurts. It has to in order to make a significant difference. There won't be any cheers for this pain either. No one in our support system would celebrate the idea of failing. We don't cheer until the product of that pain becomes success. The gold medal, the diploma, the birth of a new child, and life long marriage are these products of success.

So my life lesson here is that stillness provides a time to search our adversity. We can't choose the pain. We can't choose how much it will hurt. But we can choose what the product of this pain will be. Will it be a time to quit or a time to succeed? That choice is yours.

Adventure for the lonely

Love is a powerful emotion that holds limitless possibilities.

Sometimes this love takes us on a journey filled with views we could never imagine, passages rarely entered, and destinations never thought of.  

We can be thankful along this journey but we tend not to do so until we reminiscence about these moments.

However if these memories are used as a momentum for future endeavors rather than a forgotten place, than our history of love can personify an absolution unheard, untouched, and unspoken of.

Love can be our miracle we hope for.

Love can be an inclusive idea that sets us free. In the end love can do a lot, but what will you let love do for you?

Anchored and feeling free

I want to write some. There’s a lot on my mind especially with everything going on. Honestly I don’t know what though. The past 4 years have been a nightmare. But in all reality I really just lost my foundation.

All that I thought I knew didn’t mean very much because what my mind knew wasn’t telling my heart. My heart had issues with what God had planned. I am still trying to gather all that worked. My dreams were shaken for several reasons.

Love was a huge distraction… but now I am able to rediscover who I am and who I can be. I feel free. Finally free to do what I need to and what is possible. When I left college, I felt like anything was possible. That scared me so much. When your boundaries are endless and nonexistent, well I wasn’t okay with that. I thought I needed to be closed in. I thought I needed to be put into a box and all that I think God wanted me to realize was that I just needed to be anchored to Him and Him alone. If I put God in the center of my life and keep that energy going whole heartily than God would always steer me in the right direction. That was the problem. I feared what I didn’t know.

I feared the possibilities. I know that sounds insane but when you don’t know what you are capable of and better yet no one else around you to tell you what you can’t do well it makes things difficult. Difficult because when you have no standards, nothing to measure yourself against, you look for something, anything to measure. So you can’t tell the difference between the negative nor the positive. Each fleeting moment is hard because if you are surrounded by negative people telling you what you are doing is pointless then by default you are thinking it is pointless. Then on the other hand if you are surrounded by positive people you are uplifted by whatever task is at hand.

So rather than either be true, I want to challenge myself to my possibility. Rather than seek what is right or wrong, what is possible or isn’t possible, I need to lead my heart. My mind which if I must say is very smart and knows how to reason very well knows the difference between right and wrong. But my heart, it plays tricks and can mislead into doing irrational things that can have very dangerous effects later on. Part of that I credited to being a woman. Women are emotional and we think with our hearts way too often than we should. My heart wants to believe that things will just work it self out. My heart thinks that life can be a dream and all things will magically align themselves together. My mind knows better.

Do I believe in fate? Yes, to a certain point. The reason for this is because I believe that God’s plans are immovable. His plans are steady and certain. However, we must align ourselves with that plan. We have to cross over… literally move ourselves to point B to point A and get ourselves in tuned with what God has planned for us. That is the hardest thing to do when your heart is leading you. Your heart is telling you in a way to not take steps. Your heart is telling you to stay still… that things will just naturally happen. But that is so not true.

So I am going to let my mind lead.... it is going to get my butt into gear. Writing your own destiny is far more desirable than letting fate take control. Here's to me feeling like there's nothing I can't try.

Let him take care of it

God is perfect.

Yet as humans we are not.

So what does that mean to us. We can't compare. Because being "not" perfect entails a whole lot. From pain to suffering to well so much more. There is a vast spectrum that doesn't seem comparable to God.

But here's the deal. God traded his one and only son so that we should have everlasting life.

But what does that really mean?

Well, I'm not going to say I have the answers but for me I have figured this out. (Though I have to remind myself constantly.) God's love is enough to cover, rather, erase any pain or suffering I am going through. The drastic hole in my heart that the pain creates is not comparable to the "plug" that God has for it. Well, in all honesty, I feel like God gives me a whole new heart. Daily.

Consistly, as the pain comes, God is ready and willing to remove it. But often times, that pain as such a hold on me that I don't want nor feel like I can let it go. I know I have spent plenty of nights crying myself to sleep or thinking myself to sleep wondering what hope I have left. That there's nothing I could do to fix my problem.

There's that reality part. I can't do anything other than give it to God. Let him take care of it. As Father's Day is around the corner, I am reminded that God is the ulimate Father. He takes care of it. Whatever "It" may be. He renews us in a way that I am so grateful for.

My past does not control my future. My hurts do not control my love. My pain has no control on my freedom. All because God is in control. He says what goes.

So to all the Father's out there... thanks. To my ultimate Father, Thanks for being in Control.

Changes: Pray First

Life can change in an instance... yes. However, it is a mysterious twists and turn to make things happen. What makes me understand this is because since I saw my older brother getting marry at the age of 16... I knew then I wanted to marry. But marry whom? I prayed endlessly. When I had my first boyfriend... til the day I meant my final boyfriend and now fiance almost ten years later. Every day in between when I got lonely I prayed for the characteristics I wanted in my one day husband. I prayed from things as important as I pray he spents time with our kids all the way to I hope he enjoys going to the movies with me. And I can trustfully say, my fiance is the man I have been praying for. It took many tears of loneliness and "where the hell is he" to wow maybe he is the one.... well my soon to be husband is the one. God knew what was in my heart... and equally I see God knew what was in my future husband's heart. We were made for each other.... not exactly alike but love that bonds us together. And we are happy so super happy. So thank you God... for him and everything that he is and will be.

I want to encourage all girls out there. If you're thinking about getting married one day. Pray. Pray first. I am thankful that God let me pray and God knew years in advance what my "one day in the future" husband would be like. God knew also what my guy would be looking for. The real love that feels more alive... that ONLY God can give is more greater than any other love I know. So after you chase the Lord of Lords... than let God plan the rest. God has in mind the man that he wants to be your husband. And I'm happy as can be.

Carry Me Through

Here I am once again feeling lost. But I know deep down inside I am not because I am with the Lord. I just lose sight of Him sometimes.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. - Deuteronomy 31:6


I must admit I have read and heard this particular passage thousands of times. Yet I know when a person feels desperately alone, it is a heavy reminder that God is with us at all times. And normally our loneliness is God's way to draw us closer to Him. Perhaps that is what God is doing in this time where our nation is seeking a way that works when there seems to be no way.

God is that way. He is the one that will know exactly where we are. He will know the path to lead us to. He will help us put one step in front of the other. He is the Hope and the only Hope we will ever need. Now It is very hard for someone to understand when they have never relied on God to truly understand how amazing it feels to know God is with you. The only thing I can even compare it to is let's say you are a smallest of smallest creatures and you have the biggest of biggest creatures standing in your corner. In a way, a permanent invisible body guard to protect everything about you. However it is only when we as humans humble ourselves that we will then and only eventually see that body guard. The coolest thing is that God is so much more than that.

So of course like I said if you don't believe in God, I get it. Its hard to believe in something that you may believe doesn't exist. One of the few things I can say is have Hope. Have Hope that there is more to come.... more than you could ever imagine.

And what do we do until then? Keep working hard. Keep your passion alive as much as you can. I say this out of experience. Now don't get me wrong it is easier to type that do sometimes... well most of the time. But God does promise us that we will have land we never worked and food we will never produce. Ironically isn't that the truth now... I may love avocados but I wouldn't know the first thing on how to grow one. Lol.

So I gave you a land on which you did not toil and cities you did not build; and you live in them and eat from vineyards and olive groves that you did not plant. Joshua 24:13


Honestly though, what happens when we don't see any of it. We wait and wait... work and work... and we are down on the last count... I honestly don't know.... God has always provided a way for me. Always. And perhaps that is why I have believed because time and time again... it may not have been the exact way I wanted to be saved or found but God always has. I have been really peaceful in a tragedy. I have found food in my tummy when I didn't have a dollar in my pocket. I have had blessings come in all forms, shapes or sizes when I desperately needed it after I have prayed begging God to provide a way. Most of the times it is not easy but it is the ONLY road that I fully trust... it is the only road that I know that God will always be there to carry me through.